June 23, 2025
Counting the thousands/a mountain of people
the fuck am a dain with ma life. currently got a fucking testicle infection and a gum infection. depressed as fuck. 34 n what? a filled rhyme book or 6, no money and underestimated by those around me. "he's no working, he must be fucking useless" thats what people think when ye say ye dont work. guess these cunts dont see me cleaning up, makin cartoons, writing music, genuinely grinding every single fucking day working to get better at my craft all while dealing with cripplin ocd, arthritis and a fucking hiatus hernia. i have to remind maself every now and then that those close to you see you, but they dont see the version of you that ye know you are. they see the dumb lil sibling, the idiot friend, the poor cunt whos no well all the time. they dont see the inner grindings, the late late nights pushing yer brain to the fuckin limit. ma fingers are heavy typing this. aint wishin for nothing anymore man, am just gonna work for it. chip away....everyday.
planting the seeds