July 3, 2025
sfinally found the remedy in the coldest of ways
drums n keys for seeds tonight, this is gonna take a bit. i can make beats and produce but im not at the level i need/want to be yet, so just keep on grindin, eh. doctors referring me to a urololigist. possibility the dugs injured ma ball. maybe like almost 2 months ago zora jumped up on me and he hit my right ball with his paws. i can handle pain, but with this i had to stop and grab on to a fence, people walking by mustve thought i was pished. no long after that, i noticed ma baw was facing the left instead of its usual deal. then the infection came, epididimytis orchitis or some shit. two weeks on ofloxacin cleared up the infection. but the pains still here, and it still faces to the left sometimes. mfers probly ripped something. hopefully i can get it fixed, it hurts like fuck and im sick of waddlin about like a mad penguin way vertigo. seein a urologist is nothing new, circumcised at 8 years old, pee hole stretch 6 months later, urethra expansion a year later. followed by SIX cistoscopies between 2001-2016, probly gonna have to get another one of those too cause they always find blood in ma piss. the doctor said these takes if they do two tests and both have blood in em, then yer gettin yer boaby explored by a tiny camera on a stick that destroys yer inner willy. its a day surgery but they wont let ye leave until you've pee'd after the surgery. that first pee (and the next 10) is fucking brutal, ye have to get passed the dry blood, then its just yella n red streams, its v sore. one time with my ex we were getting busy and i came, was like 2 days after the surgery. it was agonizing and traumatising to see blood and cum together, sheesh. one benefit of that surgery is i can pee standing up for the next few weeks after it. ever since i was a kid av pissed in like 19 different directions, no 19 but between 3-5, it's pish. rip shoes and trousers.
Valentines day, it's a day for romance, you can really smell the sex in the air isn't it.